Thursday, February 28, 2013

life is always beautiful

March is coming soon , and things happen a lots after I graduated .. I just started my work last week ,I've been working almost 2weeks d ... Quiet fun working in the office and freedom , sometimes busy and something free ,nothing to do .. But I guess after few months learning new things in the office will be quiet busy .... hmmm 

After that , to telling secondary friends :How are you guys and girls ? I miss you secondary teacher's and friend's etc !!! the class of me and the the table , chair of me lol but still life goes on lahh !!! We have our own ways to go in future , life .... 


Thursday, January 31, 2013

Win#Han

15 of january 2013 --> Win* find me the first time , I couldn't believe when I saw my inbox fb ... We chatted for while only , and he give me his num and I give to him mine! THAT'S ALL 

Seriously it just like a dream , and I can't believe at first yet I thought something gonna change between us after having phone num ... but nothing happen and feel so dam disappointed again hhmmm ,,,

I tried once to called him to mixx but at first he promise to me but last he said c first* I feel nothing once he msg this to me , a guy who been made me disappointed before I guess mayb I won't put more hope into him d ... Time passed and passed I just hope , wish you will be the first to date me one day 

Win* I'm interested a lots things about you but in love with you , I can't guarantee 
My heart still have him* F##H## This is the sure and the guarantee my feeling to him , I wants him in my life so ddaaam mmuch! but I can't believe you anymore , you lied me , hurts me a lot times , my heart blind of  your love! 


Why is so weird every's human? We always love the wrong guys so much than the right one## Sometimes I do really don't understand life#love #hurts##deep so much#with the wrong!~GUY``

Saturday, January 5, 2013

2013 Please be good to me !!!

It's 2013year now... Since last year 2012 of october after outing with you den we never keep in touch with each other anymore !! My feel to you almost 0 No More** but after that I decided to add you up at my facebook but still the same things nothing changing !!! hmm so I'd give up on you 

Know what, somebody appear in my life again !! guess who's that ... The 7131 
I thought after he chase me on the august den you shouldn't contact me anymore but who knows that on the new year eve something happening both of us again ... It seems like this love wouldn't END UP** 

You loved me last time and till now !!!!! You never wants to near me ,You afraid and You get jealous of other guy close to me ... 

No matter how long we didn't meet but we still love each other .. Is that weird or it's fate both of us ? 
I can't find it out the answer !!!!! Can I really accept you back ? 
hmm I wants to know how long can you love me ? I afraid to trust you again, you been hurt me once twice and more than that ... Be with you ,do I really get all those happiness ? 

I don't wanna waste anytime on a guy especially ex bf ,if you really change for me !!! 
And love me till forever ,maybe it can be consider of it ... At my this age no more playing around, I'm 18 now !!! I don't want to waste my time at a guy who are not worth it anymore .... 

Saturday, October 27, 2012

就算没了男人更加该把你世界变得更精彩

Pain should be much more hurts than cried out actually .... 
After outing with you ,make me notice that we are not match for each other at all ~ You are not really the one for me in my life ... It's just a guy who love to playing around 
I decided to give up everythin of you but is that easy things for giving up a person who deeply in love before ? IDONTKNOW 
Hate myself that can't even solve every problem .... 
E.N.O.U.G.H 
BEING 
IDIOT 
I Do Tired For Doing This Kind Of Stuff For Guys Anymore 
Rest time for love 
Stop thinking 
My mind should S.T.O.P 

as I know one day I will find much more better than everything in my life 


Friday, October 19, 2012

I never know this love could make my mood so pissed off .... Is just a guy that I don't even know but, I can fall to him in deeply and unbelievable my tears fall for a stranger 
No idea why this love could make me death of my life, every day and moment I miss you 
You tryin to get near of me ,You tryin to talk to me but, do I really do the action what you've done? I guess NO !!!!! I'm just lookin and lookin at your eyes with doing nothin and sitting down to wait for you.... But sittin there is that really changing for everything... NO it just makes my heart get hurts and many question on my mind with no answer for it .... 
How stupid am I ? Such like an idiot sittin there with no response 

I'm tired of it... I do wants to get a rest ......

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

时间剩不多了,我还是为我的爱情争取着却没在读书
怎么了?担心是明年在也无法见你而不是我的SPM
为什么就是要为爱情多过大考
专著在大考好不好呢?!!!
很辛苦却不想放你,因为你那一双眼神已经打动了我的心。。。。要我怎么办!!!?
我很辛苦其实这样爱着一个根本不认识的一个人
有人试过着感觉嘛 ~~ 明白这感觉嘛?
以为只是一个不认识的一个人也不会伤我到哪里去,那知道的是我对着你放了真的感情下去。很笨吧!!!! 


你对我来说真的很特别,我真的没办法说出那种特别的感觉出来
快接近我好不好。。。。
那一天15/10/2012是我第一次一直看你去了很多次厕所的时候了
竟然你那么想我怎么不和我说话呢!!!???!!
害怕我吃了你?害怕我那一副很凶的样?
怎么就是不接近啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

其实每天想去学校的原因是什么嘛?就是看着你就那么多。。。
你失望因为我没去,比起上个礼拜的你不是更多天不去还是连续的两天没去。请问谁比较失望呢?
怎么爱情就是要这么折磨一个人,知道很疼么。。。
要就要嘛怎么要那样的转到一圈才发现那个人的好呢?
我很想念你到很深入了,连你的弟弟我都可以以为那是你来的
要几时我们才还有机会看着彼此?要几时我们才能够得到彼此?要几时你才会开始和我说话?要几时你才会牵着我的手?这一些到底会是几时的日子到来?我没答案,也不知怎么回答这答案

今天听着PEIYUN说的这些我心真的动了起来只是,我没表现了出来可是,心里是真的动了
很确定的是我不是一厢情愿!!!
从你们一直帮我观察,一直说一切的事我跟他。。。我就开始慢慢的想着你对我的感觉是什么的。。。。就是也和我一样我对你的感觉那样
我不想在花这两个礼拜的时间又得不到你了


你现在是我的了,没人能够期待这位子了 :)

Sunday, October 7, 2012

06/10/2012 (Saturday)

没想到也不敢想。。。 怎么我会这么的心疼还是那么的伤心因为你
好好的喜欢巴黎不是好了吗?怎么就是因为你的一出现就可以把我搞成那么的EMO
我努力着不去望着你可是,怎么你偏偏要那样的眼神让我去望你
别对我那么好可以吗?只要你做出一点点的动作我就很快心动了
真的很爱很爱你的我对你又爱又恨的,很辛苦很辛苦
逃避着自已对你的爱对我们彼此都好过点不是吗?
没回头的爱情只有,开始的爱情

当晚你一直都陪着我,在我走最后面的时候,谢谢你
当晚你故意想要靠近我,脚放出来很长的想要碰到我,谢谢你
我真的很希望当晚你可以大大方方的牵着我手的让全部人看到你是爱我的
证明给大家看我们是属于彼此的,没人可以取代这位子


可是一切一切都是不可能会发生的事了
只能想着在梦里而不是在现实里

Thursday, October 4, 2012

我相信

When Me and Alex first met it was at both of our friends’ wedding. He was a friend of the groom and I was a friend of the bride. He is from a different state so I only met him the night before the wedding. We were paired off to walk together because apparently we looked good together…:).
The day of the wedding I found out that the girl that was helping with our hair and make-up that also came from a different state was Alex’s girlfriend. I was very surprised because it seemed like we had a connection so I didn’t think he had a girlfriend. But as my friend likes to say that didn’t stop me. Well to my defense I was bored so naturally since Alex was sitting next to me at the reception we talked the entire time. (I didn’t have to worry about being bored at the ceremony because I slept through most of it, they let the bridesmaids sit down since it was long).
Well naturally since me and Alex hit it off so great his girlfriend got jealous so when we went to take pictures afterwards she came with us and basically had him all to herself. So I felt left out. But I found another one of the grooms friends to flirt with. And I hadn’t seen Alex again or heard from him after. I did find out later that they broke up and she got married really soon after. The reason they broke up…that will come up later.
So about 2 years pass, and it just so happened that one of my friends that lives in Oregon (that’s where Alex lives also) was getting married. So I went to her wedding. And it actually was a last minute decision because I didn’t think I could go. But I did, and I am so happy I did…:).
I helped with decorations for the wedding, with the flowers and you name it, so during the wedding I was really tired. During the reception which was at the same church the ceremony was at. I decided to go exploring by myself. It was a huge and very beautiful church. Well it turned out that some people that actually go to that church were decorating for this big thanksgiving thing. So I went to check it out and who do I bump into? Alex. We recognized each other immediately and started talking. But I had to go back to the wedding. Later he came to find me and he wouldn’t leave my side. I was pretty impressed… he definitely knew what he wanted and wasn’t afraid to go after it. So he got my number, we hung out the next day, but then I had to go back home. We started talking on the phone every night and before I even knew it I was in love.
He later confessed that the first time he saw me he knew he wanted to be with me. And he said he lost interest in his then girlfriend right after he met me. Which is why after she started pressuring him to get married they broke up.
Now we’re happily dating…well as happy as you can be in a long distance relationship. And we’re actually pretty seriously talking about getting married in the near future.
So love at first sight really does exist, we just clicked that first time we met and fell in love pretty fast as soon as we reconnected after 2 years.

03/10/2012 (一见钟情)

早晨发生了一件好事情在我身上
从没想过有这么的一天你还会坐我前面,这爱情是被动而不是心动
我们被动彼此的双眼
如果没从双眼开始就没现在的我们每一天好想看着彼此
老实说:我一开始好想放弃了你,不相信这世界有一见钟情的爱情
直到你的眼神,你的动作,我相信。。。我感觉得到一见钟情其实一直都存在着

我快乐因为遇见你
我幸福因为得到你
我被动因为看着你
我爱你因为相信你


NOTHIN IS ~~ IMPOSSIBLE IN THIS LIFE 

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

心很疼的一天。。下午没太阳的出现,天气有点暗暗地而且,这天气也感觉不是想要下雨的
就好像是生病的天气(我好想念你)无法停止的想我们的回忆 ——— 一直都在想象着有天得到你后,我们每天都粘着彼此不分开
爱一个人很累,尤其是爱着不认识的那一个。。。很辛苦
因为眼神让我真的好爱你(你对我其实也一样)
其实一双眼睛就能电起一个人是多么的了不起了嘛?说到了解彼此对很需要,可是不比起对一双眼神的需要。。只要眼神有了就自然会想要的去了解那人更不用说的,他一切一切都会去接受不管他过去有多么的坏

这爱情真的很疯了也很强

Thursday, September 27, 2012

很安静也很平静的一晚,我脑海又开始胡思乱想
很冷的天气就像快下着一场暴风雨连我心情和眼泪都像着天气这样
有人明白这感受?在这里一个人写着很冷的文章
没任何人在旁边,一边听着悲伤的歌
我很想念你(那个微笑甜蜜的你)好久没看了你的笑容,就只好回忆。。。你的笑容,我放进了我心里最深的某个角落(就把它收起来最美丽的一个笑)

没完成自已最想得到的东西的确可惜了至少,我遇见了你,还看得见你的微笑,听过你的声音
珍惜一切属于我自已的东西好好的去珍惜。。是不是就算世界末日了我也没什么遗憾了吧
家人永远在旁边着 我爱你们

Sunday, September 23, 2012

好强烈的一个眼神,就这样的抓走了我的心。。。在那放假的日子我以为放弃你了可是,后来的想不到的一个眼神你又抓回了我的心
没想到我也可以把你心抓住。。。我从来都没要求过什么就这样某某的爱你,看着你就好了。但,我觉得这次真的不行了~~~ 就让我一个要求让我得到你,甚为我的最好最棒的一个男人好嘛?就这么一个要求
我知道不认识的我们是很难得到彼此可是,我好想试试这段和你的爱情
跟别人说我没In A Relationship1年多了可是,没人相信
竟然是这样那么让我真真的拥有一段爱情吧!!!就你一个,我任何人都不想要和他们一起


如果得到了你,我绝不放手
眼神让我们爱了彼此。。。我绝相信自已的感觉你对我是真的
别听别人怎么说,就用自已的心去感觉它

或许这爱情是有点白痴会让别人取笑我,没关系
只要是喜欢的就该去得到
我们不知道今年会不会世界末日所以,现在想要做的快去完成得到它吧

Saturday, September 1, 2012

就因为我的坏脾气,性格,属于我的一切造成了失败者
很心痛自已把一切造成的
对不起,我知道我还不够成熟
没想过后才这么说话
就算你们原谅不到我,我也无法原谅我自已这种性格
我不是乖女孩只会带给你们很多的麻烦

在你们眼里我只是个长不大的女孩
你们根本不放心我一个人生活的日子
给我的感觉你们每年肯定不会这么轻易的让我住在外面
不管我的以后,未来,请你们让我自已做决定吧
别因为一句的担心让我在我未来属于了不成功,我不想要这结局


我想要改变自已,改变我的人生

Sunday, August 26, 2012

原来还是你

爱的还是你,我才发现自已原来这是对着他有兴趣
而你还在我心里最深的一个角落
没想到这爱情这么的强
爱的力量你和我。

你记得一切的事情,我们彼此怎么认识,怎么在一起。
谢谢你还记得我们一起经历过的一切
很多事情发生在我们彼此,可是我们都最后都没放弃过彼此


等明年你和我的承诺我们都要一起达成它
我一直都在期待着明年我们就不会一直分开啦!!! :) 
一直都有彼此陪伴



我爱你,还是那么爱你
只是没机会说出口告诉您 

Sunday, August 19, 2012

为什么就那么一点点的消息关于你都不给我?我心很痛见不到你的日子。。。很苦
我在想如果那天毕业后,在也看不到你不是更糟糕
不是说放弃嘛?可是放弃到哪里去了,最后还不是一样的傻傻的又想起回你
可以告诉我你的想法是和我一样嘛?别让我怀疑你对我的感觉是错的,我不想要这样
一直以来都想要得到宠爱尤其现在很想要得到你的宠爱
有时,感觉周围的人在取笑我而且他们认为我的想法是不够成熟在爱情里还是他们觉得这种的爱情是没可能可以拥有得到毕竟还不认识彼此,感觉要我放弃它
但,你们知道嚒!我和他并不认识可是我们有缘分能够遇见在这世界
我相信爱请是要耐心得到才会得到,每一分每一秒我都想要抓住那机会
不管结果怎么样我会去接受它,因为是我选择不要你去选择了他
竟然都作出这决定了只好接受得到最后的答案是什么

别放弃因为受到影响朋友的话不然就输定了
其实有时我会这样因为受到朋友影响的话而想要放弃,可是让我知道的是为何要听别人所说的而放弃就因为那一句话。就毁了那爱情,那以前所做的不是白费心机了嘛?

爱情是自已的是在我们手上也是我们自已去做决定

Friday, August 17, 2012

It's quiet long never update my blog anymore, is still the same guy anyway, he is still on my mind no disappear yet.
there's no idea for this love and no reason. its only one word to describe that's hurt in heart 
I just wan some action between for us, but there's fail.... Maybe sometimes I think so much and there's no action for this love and just carry on with like this. but I still wish and one to get closer v euu 
I know im quiet stubborn, there is no any love between you and him but I still wanted for it. really suffering and hated.... what's wrong v me ? falling with a guy unknowing him? FUCK up mann ~~~~ Come on the world is so big there's so many guys wait for you why not choosing them.... and rather than choosing a guy that unknowing one? am I really idiot ,right... yeaaaaa ,i knew that... 
But you know what, when im closer into you i feel very comfortable and of course should be nervous cause is the guy that you love... 

Hurmmm ~~~!!!!! Come on relene, wake up right now... it's enough, Don't love a guy that unknowing one
there's no ending love 


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Love At First Sight

After him, I give it up in everything in love.. I don't trust in any guys especially guy who wanna chase I will straight treat them cool
There's always hurt and the scar can't be removed... I want to get my true love in my life but sometimes I afraid to believe in this world have TRUE LOVE, There's only have FAKE LOVE 


After him I finally interested with a guy but I guess everybody will be laughed at me 
But I believe it love at first sight sometimes will be true love too  
Suddenly I feel like going near him and to know him more, Is quiet hard but... never try never know, right ;D 






Love at first sight doesn't mean there's no happy ending, 
Sometimes if you having fate with the guy,
He will always appear in your life 

Friday, June 1, 2012

我恨成为中间人

成为中间人不是你想象的那么简单,
你知道他不喜欢他们可是你和他是很久的朋友了,你又每次都参他们的
有时出来要约彼此可是切知道他不喜欢他们
真的不知道该怎么办
我对这段友情真的很累很累


谁明白那种感觉能够告诉我么
我好想大哭一场
老实说:
有时你对我太好我真的无法接受得到,
你竟然有了女朋友请你别对另外一位女生那么好行么


我没在逃避什么事情,只是你实在对我太好了
这不是我想要的
我要的是你对我贱点,别太好


对我太好的人我怕我会一直“CAN ZHE”你
我不要这样的我一直“CAN ZHE”别人




请保持这样的朋友不变化
重要是别对我太好就行了

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Say's Hi to my blog :)

Hi to my blog ~ I'm back again... I'm here to vent 
I'm having a complicated situation right now ~ quiet hurt and pain every night 
I miss you everyday and the most painful for missing u is at night... Ppl who gets hurt in deep will understand how's the feeling, I thought after avoid and reject from you is a good choices... 
What is love? I dont know actually... nobody know love, love is always complicated for human's 
We don't really understand sometime... everybody need love for their life ,need somebody beside and loving just like puppies needs pampered 


I can't give a guarantee that how long do I loving you, as I know right now I love u so much... 
maybe is just for few year loving you or more than that... 
Sometimes, I really dont know what I one and what am I thinking on my mind... 


I'm afraid with many thing's but does not telling to other, we dont need to tell our story 
what was happening is always in our mind ,is just like memory card sometimes it may repeat the imagine 


Surrounding of my friend's I hoped they will appreciate what they have now and happy to live with their life 
no matter there's how hard to solve the problem sure have a way to solve it