It's quiet long never update my blog anymore, is still the same guy anyway, he is still on my mind no disappear yet.
there's no idea for this love and no reason. its only one word to describe that's hurt in heart 
I just wan some action between for us, but there's fail.... Maybe sometimes I think so much and there's no action for this love and just carry on with like this. but I still wish and one to get closer v euu 
I know im quiet stubborn, there is no any love between you and him but I still wanted for it. really suffering and hated.... what's wrong v me ? falling with a guy unknowing him? FUCK up mann ~~~~ Come on the world is so big there's so many guys wait for you why not choosing them.... and rather than choosing a guy that unknowing one? am I really idiot ,right... yeaaaaa ,i knew that... 
But you know what, when im closer into you i feel very comfortable and of course should be nervous cause is the guy that you love... 

Hurmmm ~~~!!!!! Come on relene, wake up right now... it's enough, Don't love a guy that unknowing one
there's no ending love 

Love At First Sight

After him, I give it up in everything in love.. I don't trust in any guys especially guy who wanna chase I will straight treat them cool
There's always hurt and the scar can't be removed... I want to get my true love in my life but sometimes I afraid to believe in this world have TRUE LOVE, There's only have FAKE LOVE 


After him I finally interested with a guy but I guess everybody will be laughed at me 
But I believe it love at first sight sometimes will be true love too  
Suddenly I feel like going near him and to know him more, Is quiet hard but... never try never know, right ;D 






Love at first sight doesn't mean there's no happy ending, 
Sometimes if you having fate with the guy,
He will always appear in your life 

我恨成为中间人

成为中间人不是你想象的那么简单，
你知道他不喜欢他们可是你和他是很久的朋友了，你又每次都参他们的
有时出来要约彼此可是切知道他不喜欢他们
真的不知道该怎么办
我对这段友情真的很累很累


谁明白那种感觉能够告诉我么
我好想大哭一场
老实说：
有时你对我太好我真的无法接受得到，
你竟然有了女朋友请你别对另外一位女生那么好行么


我没在逃避什么事情，只是你实在对我太好了
这不是我想要的
我要的是你对我贱点，别太好


对我太好的人我怕我会一直“CAN ZHE”你
我不要这样的我一直“CAN ZHE”别人




请保持这样的朋友不变化
重要是别对我太好就行了

Say's Hi to my blog :)

Hi to my blog ~ I'm back again... I'm here to vent 
I'm having a complicated situation right now ~ quiet hurt and pain every night 
I miss you everyday and the most painful for missing u is at night... Ppl who gets hurt in deep will understand how's the feeling, I thought after avoid and reject from you is a good choices... 
What is love? I dont know actually... nobody know love, love is always complicated for human's 
We don't really understand sometime... everybody need love for their life ,need somebody beside and loving just like puppies needs pampered 


I can't give a guarantee that how long do I loving you, as I know right now I love u so much... 
maybe is just for few year loving you or more than that... 
Sometimes, I really dont know what I one and what am I thinking on my mind... 


I'm afraid with many thing's but does not telling to other, we dont need to tell our story 
what was happening is always in our mind ,is just like memory card sometimes it may repeat the imagine 


Surrounding of my friend's I hoped they will appreciate what they have now and happy to live with their life 
no matter there's how hard to solve the problem sure have a way to solve it 

There's nobody will understand how's hurts in your heart~ because u the one only can feel the pain and euu the one who know it

sometimes u tot that u d give up that fellow, but you are just find someone to cover the pain. is unfair for that guy, so sorry. the problem is happening on me and I dont even know how to go and settle with everything and it seems like make ppl hates you. but I have no choices ,im sorry for being so bad to you 

Now I realize that who's the guy I one

Just be the one when I need you and support me for doing anything I one, tats all ~ I dont ask for so much from you. 

Im so sorry for being so bad, but I really seriously in love with you alrdy 

once I really decide to fall in love to you, I wont easily to give up 

I wish theres someone know the feeling and understand ,tats all 

之从那天开始我们彼此就没开始联络了,是你还再生气还是你已经想要放弃了我们这段感情了~

对,或许给别人觉得我们连开始都没有算得了什么?可是至少我们对彼此有了感觉只是没主动说出来

我不去理会别人所说的一切,因为这间事情是应该我和你的事情来的我何必去管别人怎么说~

我觉得我和你之间有太多太多的问题了,而且是解决不了的问题那样

我不能这样继续,因为我不想永远都和你有个解决不了的问题~

只是不知道怎么去解决它:( 唉~~~老实说我不想连和你做朋友都没得做:( 不想因为这样就失去了你这样的一个能够和你聊心事的朋友

希望一切都能恢复吧~不想把它变成COMPLICATED

昨晚也发生了一些事情~就是, :(((( 

我心很疼听了这些~我真的不知道该如何去回复你那些信息

请别和我说这些话好么~你知道么,你说这些我觉得你现在的生活好像很不好过

曾经的我那么深的爱你爱你爱你,可是你是怎么对我的?现在你才来说你后悔了没好好的珍惜我?

到底是怎样叻!!!??? :((((((( 

Today is somebody bufday:) And I wish he had a great birthday for today 
Yesterday he came to mixx and find me ,cant even imagine that ~ Hmmmm 
sometimes i really dont really know whats his thinking and although he sometimes quiet cool but my feeling to him seems like getting stronger
That night ~ i saw his phone message ,that girl send to her but i did not go and see the message, i just saw his inbox name. am i jealousy for it? or ????? I feels that he still feeling to her ,but I did not go and ask for so much~ as i know today is his bufday, just wans him to be happy 
Sometimes, I was thinking to give up and pls dont ever appear in my life. but it seems like I cant make it without him~ He's not the type that romantic and considerate ,but how come my feeling to him is so so ......... :( 




Anyway, just hope that he wont forget his 1st birthday and appreciate for it
just let see in future, whether got fate for both of us anot




Just wants to say again: Happy Birthday